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Thursday, January 31, 2008

9:43 PM

ive just been feeling highly jaded lately,for the first time ever in many weeks of 4,5 hours nights i had my ten hour sleep.i am just such a procrastinating procrastinator.i never seen to be able to get any work done.my exams start tomorrow and yes tell me about it i am only about 15% ready for it?someone please tell me why did i choose to take 2CDS at one go again?school is making me feel really distant from alot of people.and i really do not like it.thank God for the three weeks advanced holidays that CMM offers otherwise i am sure to really become HIGHLY HIGHLY jaded.i need a break from all these.

Maybe that's just me,i'm just going through that trouble time where all hell breaks lose and i get highly burnt out just from school.i think i am married to my computer and that just makes it so much worst.screw it.yea and to make it all the more better,relationship wise it is just going down the drain yet again.i know it is my fault.i had always been the cause of all last failures too.so what's new?i need to learn how to prioritise and learn how to put some people before others.but sometime time just does not prevail.i think i need therapy

switchfoot last night was good.thanks Dila. (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Friday, January 25, 2008

10:56 PM

SOCIALISM: You have 2 cows. You give one to your neighbour.

COMMUNISM: You have 2 cows. The State takes both and gives you some milk.

FASCISM: You have 2 cows. The State takes both and sells you some milk.

NAZISM/DICTATORSHIP: You have 2 cows. The State takes both and shoots you.

BUREAUCRACY: You have 2 cows. The State takes both, shoots one, milks the other, then throws the milk away.

TRADITIONAL CAPITALISM: You have two cows. You sell one and buy a bull.
Your herd multiplies, and the economy grows. You sell them and retire on the
income.

SURREALISM: You have two giraffes. The government requires you to take
harmonica lessons.

AN AMERICAN CORPORATION: You have two cows. You sell one, and force the other to produce the milk of four cows. Later, you hire a consultant to
analyse why the cow has dropped dead.

ENRON VENTURE CAPITALISM: You have two cows. You sell three of them to
your publicly listed company, using letters of credit opened by your
brother-in-law at the bank, then execute a debt/equity swap with an
associated general offer so that you get all four cows back, with a tax
exemption for five cows. The milk rights of the six cows are transferred via
an intermediary to a Cayman Island Company secretly owned by the majority
shareholder who sells the rights to all seven cows back to your listed
company. The annual report says the company owns eight cows, with an option
on one more. Sell one cow to buy a new President of the United States ,
leaving you with nine cows. No balance sheet provided with the release. The
public buys your bull.

THE ANDERSEN MODEL: You have two cows. You shred them.

A FRENCH CORPORATION: You have two cows. You go on strike, organise a
riot, and block the roads, because you want three cows.

A JAPANESE CORPORATION: You have two cows. You redesign them so they are one-tenth the size of an ordinary cow and produce twenty times the milk. You
then create a clever cow cartoon image called ‘ cowkimon ‘ and market it
worldwide.

A GERMAN CORPORATION: You have two cows. You re-engineer them so they live for 100 years, eat once a month, and milk themselves.

AN ITALIAN CORPORATION: You have two cows, but you don’t know where they are. You decide to have lunch.

A RUSSIAN CORPORATION: You have two cows. You count them and learn you have five cows. You count them again and learn you have 42 cows. You count
them again and learn you have 2 cows. You stop counting cows and open
another bottle of vodka.

A SWISS CORPORATION: You have 5000 cows. None of them belong to you. You charge the owners for storing them.

A CHINESE CORPORATION: You have two cows. You have 300 people milking
them. You claim that you have full employment, and high bovine productivity,
and arrest the newsman who reported the real situation.

AN INDIAN CORPORATION: You have two cows. You worship them.

A BRITISH CORPORATION: You have two cows. Both are mad.

AN IRAQI CORPORATION: Everyone thinks you have lots of cows. You tell them that you have none. No-one believes you, so they bomb the **** out of you
and invade your country. You still have no cows, but at least now you are
part of a Democracy….

A WELSH CORPORATION: You have two cows. The one on the left looks very
attractive.

AN AUSTRALIAN CORPORATION: You have two cows. Business seems pretty good. You close the office and go for a few beers to celebrate.

the random shit that you find online

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

10:33 PM

and once again the hell week is here.
damn you school!

school holidays in 42days time
zomg i can hardly wait.
but before that the damned screwed up exams and the motherLOAD of projects due!
shoot me please.AHHHH

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

7:49 AM

school is completely causing me to become a highly jaded zombie-like floating person.all these projects and homework seriously has to stop.like the first thing when i reached home today,i completely just flat out collapse onto my bed and just "died" for four hours straight.tell me about it.

i have decided to try out my jessica has got to cut down plan.with that i shall try to make my cigarette packs last me more than the current 2-3 days.to lead a healthier lifestyle and abstain from temptation.though i somehow think this will fail again somehow.i mean mel and iman managed to quit somehow.i think i just lack determination.owells

switchfoot next week and i am still contemplating on going or not.like wth why does tjc get switchfoot for free and we dont?why cant they just come down to tp instead?wouldnt that be like a million times better?we've got better and cheaper food too (:

this week was good anyway.i finally managed to catch up with a huge bunch of people whom ive not seen for a couple of months.yay.love.

anyway i back to my never-ending pile of crap work.blaaaaaahhh.
anyway cmon be so flipping proud of me.ive not partied since new year,drank like a bitch since the week after new year and smoked in the past 5hours.
it's an all time miracle.wooohoo!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Friday, January 18, 2008

8:49 AM

school spells tiring.had council meeting until close to 8 today.over media biz awards.but it was quite fun so screw it.i still find it completely unnecessary going for the lui teck yew forum thingy today.i guess i just found him really casual?like he didnt quite answer the questions asked direct.but then again personal opinion so i aint judging.i realised that ive been really exhausted lately.that is bad.not only that i think im suffering from premature aging.yes slowly but surely.nick's chalet was good.pics are on my facebook i think.im still pretty stumped that i was not able to head down to the tattoo parlour with nick.would so love to see his tattoo that took three flipping years to design.now now second draft up next!im shagged and im swarmped with loads of school work help me please!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, January 07, 2008

8:13 AM

lately i have been feeling as though people around me are somehow making use of me.strange.yes i know my best friends would tell me im being really paranoid yet again but seriously.sometimes i just feel as though i am constantly surrounded by dumb people who always ask me the same questions.the reason - the refusal of using their own brains.maybe one day they would actually grow up and try to learn something.i guess perhaps sometimes i just get too obliging to some and because of that i get stepped overed.funny.why dont i ever learn from my mistakes.really really funny.i guess maybe i just brought all these upon myself.aint it supposed to be once bitten twice shy?

i wish one day i would actually be less apprehensive about the people and things around me.ironic that i usually tell people that instead.yeapp.pot calling the kettle black.i wonder why do i feel so alone lately when i have just been spending almost all week at house parties,school and stuff.i guess maybe i really just have to grow up and learn how to just take things by stride? - then again if that is ever possible.i figured,perhaps i just tend to dwell on things alot.urghhh move on jess move on.someone just teach me how.please

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;